Updated: Oct 11, 2020
Anyone who has been on this journey with Christ for any length of time would have either heard or spoken these words. "I'm saved, but I messed up!" For some, "again", would appropriately end that phrase.
I can remember being that young Christian that never thought these words would come from my lips. Starting out, I was eager and excited about my walk with Christ. After having so many people that I looked up to, it seemed from the outside that Christianity would be a piece of cake and FUN. Boy was I mistaken.
Eventually, I was slapped with a series of tests and "Life Happened".
Not only did it shock me to my core, but it left me questioning my Faith and the God I would have served Faithfully for more than half of my life.
At that time, I didn't fully understand how to navigate life's disappointments, hurts, and pains while maintaining my faith in God. It's here that I found myself not only Saved, but I Messed Up.
The good news is you do not have to live in your mistakes. You can take steps to get back up after you have messed up. Here's how:
Run To The Father
Nobody told me that going through life's ups and downs is the time to run to the Father. Instead, I found myself running to other places with God knows who, doing God knows what.
This is often a place that one has to be very careful with because if given a chance, the one time mess up can move from a one-time mistake to a lifestyle of errors.
What did I do, you may ask? After a few months of assuming that my messing up meant I was doomed, like the prodigal son, I finally came to my senses (Luke 15:11-32). I ran back to my Father pleading with Him to forgive me and bring about change in my life.
In all honesty, that process wasn't easy. Those of us who truly have a heart for God and to please Him, messing up is something that you may do, but you're never happy about.
The beauty is we do not have to stay in our mess-ups.
There must be intentionality on your part not to repeat the cycle. Unless you intentionally make efforts not to repeat the cycle, it will continue to happen.
You may be saying, "I don't want this to be a cycle" and so did I. But these statements alone did not ensure messing up would not happen again.
I had to be intentional and committed not to look backward. I went through times of being angry with myself, the church, and even God. I felt like they all failed me. However, if I would have been honest at that time, I was my biggest enemy.
After coming to my senses, I had to intentionally thrust myself into God and His presence, unlike I would have ever done before. It was here that He helped to understand many things.
There was much power in being honest with myself & God. Honesty with myself meant realizing I was my problem, and I needed help.
In this process of being honest, I LEARNED ME! Self-evaluating allowed me to gain insight and wisdom. I learned my triggers, and what I did that caused me to get to those low places, and in some cases, repeating those cycles.
The truth is, I needed more personal time with the Lord. I became busy. Busy with His work & ministry but not with Him. This left openings for the enemy. It was after this that I made a decision to rise from here, and I put a few things in place because I was determined to be Saved for REAL.
I carved out special time. Nothing and no one interfered with that time. It was here in that time that the "Messed-Up" girl rose out of the ashes and with great determination never to go back again.
My deliverance came when I confessed my state and changed my confession
After coming to myself, I was reminded
If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose].
1 John 1:9 (AMP)
This was my place of saying to the Father I can't do this on my own, HELP ME.
I changed my speech by confessing God's Word.
It's important to confess God's word. I confessed what His word said about me, not where I was but what He called me to be.
I don't want this to be a cycle – Wrong
This will not have a hold over me – Correct
I'm trying to live right – Wrong
I can do all things through Christ that's strengthens me. Therefore, my body is the Temple of the Lord. - Correct
Change Your Circle
There were some saved, but carnal people in my nearby circle, and they needed to go. Being in that environment didn't feed my spirit. I then recognized that I'm called to something greater.
There some action that would be ok and comfortable for some, but it grieved me. As a result, some people had to jet.
I'm saved, but I messed up will always be apart of my testimony as a believer, but it's NOT who I am, and neither is it who YOU are. Remember, on this journey, there will be potholes and ditches on the road, but our Father has promised never to leave nor forsake us.
In the end, it's up to us to decide to let Him hold our hands. My story has changed. Instead... I'm Saved, but I Messed Up – Now Fully Restored!