No matter who we are, we have all experienced brokenness in one form or another. However, what happens when we are required to serve others, particularly in ministry, in this broken state.
Questions may be flooding your heart at this moment. You may be asking:
Should I serve from a broken place?
Can God use me, even in this state?
My answer to you is, YES!.
When you are in a broken place, this is where Father can truly use you to serve best.
Brokenness Births Humility And Faith
The truth is, you can never please God solely by your outward actions. No matter how good you are, God specializes in the matters of the heart.
According to Psalms 51:17:
‘The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise’.
Brokenness often helps to restore our heart and motives in the right place, because we are brought to a place of humility. In our state of humility, our posture changes and God can now begin to work in and through us, in ways, we may have been limiting Him before. God's grace shines through in brokenness.
A humble child tastes the grace of God.
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom.
Proverbs 11: 2
Likewise, you who are younger, be subject to the elders. Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."
1 Peter 5:5
Through humility, our motives and hidden agendas are removed. When there are no motives and no hidden agendas:
You know that your worship is from a pure place.
You know that if it had not been for the Lord on your side; you would have not made it.
Your faith begins to expand.
Your strength and your self-reliance are all in Him and no one else.
Your service is a sacrifice. (Life, Time, Treasure and Love).
How do I know all of this?
I have lived this.
As a former worship leader, it was always hard for me to be in front of people. Actually, it was something I disliked.
The daze in people's eyes as I walked across the stage made me feel vulnerable and naked as I became conscious that all eyes were on me.
I had to constantly remind and encourage myself by saying, ‘Lord for You and for your glory’.
This realization strengthened me. Since I knew God had already gone before me and the Holy Spirit was with me, it made it that much easier to serve.
Even during those moments of serving others, my life was far from perfect:
My marriage was in shambles.
My son was acting out.
My finances running out.
I Struggled with mind battles.
My personal insecurities and thoughts were all over the place.
And the list can go on.
In short, I WAS BROKEN.........
I wanted to run away and hide, not serve, not sing, not love.
I had to make a choice. Either I would live and wallow in my brokenness or I would give it to God.
I eventually chose the latter.
I trusted God and cast my cares upon Him with everything that is intimate and what I held dearly to my heart. Although difficult, when I decided to give him all my burden, it all became clearer.
*Singing*🎤🎤🎤 ‘I can see clearly now the rain is gone’.
My brokenness changed my posture and God's grace stepped in:
I found it easy to love.
I found a community.
I realized I was not alone.
I understood that the heavier my burden, my roots of faith became deeper and grounded in God.
I'll leave you with this. Even in your brokenness. Serve!
Because when Christ is with you, you can smile at the storm.
Let your faith arise.
You can do this.
You are not alone.
Remember even broken people can help others and rise to the mountain top.